Thursday, December 17, 2009

Fuck ya!

Tomorrow is the big day!!
My best friends and I go on a 14 hr flight to Japan! ^O^

I still have a few things to get together before I go to the twins house for a whole night of nerves and excitement. YAY!!


Ja nee!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Japan anyone??

I leave for Japan Friday!
I’m getting anxious it’s making me sick I can’t eat anything >.<

My mom finally gave me the money for my trip that helps my anxiety a little XD
I still need to call my bank to inform them that I will be in Japan so they wont lock my account.

I still need to buy a few things and get my eyebrows and nails done before the trip *sigh* Plus I need to dye my hair.

I need to meet up with my friend to get my Dray ticket I hope she remembered to bring it T__T

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! I think I need to go for a jog so I don’t freak out

I do not want to forget anything!!


Ja nee!

Monday, December 7, 2009


(JP Time) Yesterday was Karyu's birthday but I wanted to say it today XD

The man is still sexy and looking young!! Grrrrrrrrr!

D'espairsRay Pictures, Images and Photos

All I want for X-mas is Karyu


Ja nee!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


This became my new best friend since yesterday. I thought I would be a good idea to go jog in 50 degrees weather. (>O<) Today I will go to school for my jog I can't risk getting sick close to my trip. A while back I helped my friend Mary in a catering job. It was a rushed job be we made it work for a half ass job. XD She let me have the left overs and I made this

I wanted my family to try it ^O^

Cooked spinach with garlic and feta cheese wrapped in phyllo dough. Yummy!

Tsukasa, Shun, and Gackt are collaborating!! I wonder how that will sound ^O^


Ja nee!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Betsey Johnson anyone??

Betsey Johnson Metalicize Me Tote

I want this bag sooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!!! I love the color red and skulls!! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

I plan to save up for it when I come back form Japan ^O^

If I can't find a cool watch in Japan I will want to buy one of these XD


Ja nee!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Hellz ya!!

There is 19 more days till Japan ^O^
I'm so excited!!
I bought most stuff I need for my trip I just need 3 more items XD

Thanksgiving was good ^__^
I need to workout (>O<) I think I gained some weight T__T

I am stressing about the trip still it shows on my face.


Ja nee!

Monday, November 23, 2009

The name of the ROSE

I will buy this when I am in Japan ^O^
I can't wait!!

Let's see if Asagi has a good sense of smell :3


Ja nee!


I got really bored one day and decided to do this. If you know me you should already know my lil obsession with Karyu. LOL!


Ja nee!!

24 more days left!!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Oni-con 2009 pt2...kinda


This is what I wore on the second day of Oni-con
Pants: Was given to me a looooooooong time ago I love them to death XD
Boots: Given to me by Juongie

I was looking for a vampire makeup tutorial and found this awesome one!!

This is how it tuned out I know it’s not exactly the same (plus she has badass makeup!!) my eye shape is different XD I suck at applying make up I usually have my friends do my make up but did this all by myself. ^O^


Ja nee!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

D'espairsRay fanclub


I am on a mission to find a way to get into D’espairsRay official fan club. I know you HAVE to live in Japan to be in it………not fair T__T I know there are some people who pay others to be in the fan club but I don’t know anyone who lives there that I can trust. A friend of mine is going to school there but I do NOT want to bother her. I already asked her to get my a concert ticket for D’espairsRay and she has been having problems trying to get it. I feel so bad I don’t want to stress her out. Y__Y

Does anyone have another solution to get into the fan club???
I do not want to be scammed!! >.< I don't want to punch someone in the face!


Ja nee



I woke up this morning and noticed I have lost weight!! I am fitting into a size 13 again I use to be that in 12 th grade.

Weight history:
I use to be 250lb

Dropped to 165lb
Then gained some weight and was 185 for a long time
Now I am 169
My goal is 120 or 130 but if I can’t reach that at least a size 6 or 7 will make me happy.
I know everyone is different I don’t want to look like the walking dead either!! XDXD

The struggle for weight loss for me has and still is an up and down battle I did it by myself for a yr it was easy to get discouraged which lead me quitting. Then college came and so did my friends who helped me tremendously!! We all did an aerobics class together for a P.E. credit I didn’t think much of it but the teacher opened my eyes about health. We all got inspired to get healthy (Lana was always healthy XD) we became exercise freaks XDXD 6 days a week and it took a while to get use to. Lana feed me healthy food it was light but filling. Summer came a long and we got off track I gained my weight back and was eating bad. Now that Japan is coming up we are determined to get back into shape!! We are going to be walking a lot so we want to build our stamina ^O^ I want to fit into Japanese clothes too! Plus this is for my self esteem. This year my self esteem has gotten a lil high I am starting to like myself ^___^

Anyway I would like to thank Lana and Juongie for helping me and being there for me with this struggle! ^O^

I still need to buy luggage!! TOT

Thanksgiving is coming O____O it will be hard not to over eat. I will have to keep telling myself Japan. LOL!


Ja nee

P.S. Houston weather is improving ^O^

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Oni-con 2009

Oni-con 2009 was fun!

Satsuki and born were bad ass in concert!!

Q&A and autograph session was awesome!!

Had so much fun with my best friends on their late birthday celebration!!
The rave was so much fun can’t wait till another con!!!

Japan is a month and 16 days left!! I’m so excited!!
My girlfriends and I want to go to Club atom. Lana and I have been reading up on reviews so far it’s good. My question is it hard to get in if you’re a foreigner???


Ja nee

Tuesday, October 27, 2009


I am luggage hunting!! There is a month and 21 days till THE MOTHER LAND XDXDXD can’t wait to get away from TX and the U.S.A.

D’espairsRay is killing my pocket!! They have a new DVD coming out that’s like $102!! I love them to death but I don’t think I will be getting this item unless it’s given to me as a present or I sell my soul……again. I’ll see if stores have it when I’m in Japan ^___^ THEY BETTER OR ALL HELL WILL BREAK LOSE!!

Oni-con!! I needed a concert *rocks back and forth* yes I know Dir en Grey is having one but I don’t like being in a crowd full of ass holes smashing each other to get to the front (which will not happen b/c the ppl in front row will kill you DUH!!) I plan to be a vampire for Halloween!! Mwahahahahaha!! I did a make up practice run it came out pretty well for my first try XD now I have to get an outfit together =___=

Anyways I have been busy with working out like crazy!! @__@ I feel like there is not enough time anymore my knees are in pain right now *sigh* but I will block it out


Ja nee

Wednesday, October 14, 2009



I had a dumb moment!! >XD
I sent money to a friend in Japan so she could buy my ticket for D’espairsRay: Yokohama Blitz. I told my friend that the tickets went on sale October 13 so she goes to the convenience store to buy the ticket. She was at the store well over 45 min and flipping through 316 pages to find the concert. I chatted with her today and sent her the site of the venue and she read general admission tickets can be purchased in November…………(I don‘t know how to read Japanese) ………….... I was freaking out for no reason!! >XD

I’m going to buy her something from the concert I feel bad for making her worry (>O<) I was soooooooo scared that I was not going to the concert. I have not seen a D’espairsRay LIVE well over a year. It’s my drug and I need my fix ^O^ I am so happy that I will see them again they mean so much to me T__T


Ja nee

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Bento box

I while back I got this book it looks easy to make. I have yet to try it out I will most likely ask my friend if she would like to try some recipes with me. She got a bunch of cute bento cutters ^O^

Can't wait! I will post up pictures of our creations.



2 months an 16 days till I go to the motherland!!! ^O^

I have been looking for D’espairsRay concerts T~T I have not seen them LIVE in forever!!

I want to go here!!


Tuesday, September 15, 2009


OMG! I want to go to V-ROCK FESTIVAL '09!!
I have a friend who moved to Japan recently she is sooooooooooooo lucky!!

I am so excited but at the same time extremely depressed I WANT TO GO!! D'espairsRay is going to be there too!! *DIES*


*sigh* Okay I am done -___-
Ja nee!

P.S. Who ever gets to go please tell me how it goes!! ^O^


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